For over a year now, God has been teaching me a great lesson. He has been teaching me to dream.
He has been re-teaching me to step out in faith. I say RE-teach because I believe some of these lessons I’ve seen before in my younger days. However, getting married and especially starting a family, I find myself becoming ‘safe.’ Decisions that I make no longer effect just me but my family. I’ve been dangerously flirting with getting too safe. Two years ago I found myself so tightly gripping the illusion of safety that I said ‘no’ to God. I was afraid. Afraid of the faith and trust it would require. Afraid of the impact on my family. Afraid of failure.
God didn’t like my answer.
He made this clear. Thankfully, God had bigger plans for me than I had for myself. Plans that are so much larger and more extreme than I ever thought possible. He is teaching me to dream. Dreams that are detached from fear and a desperation for safety. Dreams that are not mine, but His. Dreams built on His plans that ALWAYS succeed. I watched some of my greatest ministry dreams come true this past year. Things that 2 years ago, not only did I think impossible, I ran from them. This coming year I have things on the horizon I personally am not creative enough to dream up. Without finally giving God a ‘yes’ these dreams would never have found their way to the inner chambers of my heart.
Just because I said ‘yes’ to God’s plans and dreams doesn’t mean I don’t have to armor up for the internal battle. Daily, I face off with that fear that paralyzed me several years ago. A few days ago, I found myself upset with fear, praying for God to send confirmation. (like He hasn’t already done this plenty already) I wanted my confirmation to come in a specific way.
God didn’t like my way.
Instead, my confirmation came while reading a children’s devotional to my 20 month old daughter. I tried to read into this a bit too much…do I need more childlike faith, He is probably speaking to me like a child because i’m acting childish, both, etc…but really, who am I to say if He wants to show up through the earthquake, stillness (read earlier post) or a kid’s book. Honestly, I’m just glad He is involved enough to give me the dream and then confirm them!
I share the words of the devotion so that some of you may be encouraged to embrace His dreams for you as well.
The devotional read:
Dream Come True
I have a dream. And God will make that dream come true, because my life is His. My dreams are His too-His to shape and mold into anything He wants. So I will let God shape my dreams. They are in good hands. He is making something beautiful.
“The parched ground shall become a pool.” Isaiah 35:7